Why do men and women tear indignantly?

Why do men and women tear indignantly?
I have been hiding something from the husband all the time, bear the heavy cross for this my soul, can't be peaceful for a moment. During the university, I fall in love, dedicate valuable " first time " to for him in a daze in a daze with one classmate once ,We have said good-bye while waking up. Later, I knew the present husband loose. It is a very outstanding man to be loose, no matter stature feature or disposition glamour is one up on, the more important thing is his love to me is thick, deep, but not merely simple appreciating. I am while being happy for finding such a companion, worried to torment me ceaselessly too: Should I tell him my lost chastity? If I have remembered Taiwanese writer Bai Yang: It is the greatest strength of destroying the emotion to be non- loyal. Lose the loyal woman, don't expect husbands to forgive you innocently. Though it is before knowing loose that I lose chastity, though loose mind is broad, I still can't conclude he will forgive me - -I have minded him very much, I fear to lose him because of this. But is it to cheat him to conceal this fact? How to mix and cheat the love? The loose love to me is more and more strong as time goes on like Chen Nian's wine, and I am deep on day in China's agony of telling his contradiction. Ours wedding day reached in an instant, I could not stand the torment of heart at last, determine to unload this wholeheartedly efficacious cross. I make comfort oneself constantly while in decision: It is so kind to me to be loose, will not abandon me because of this. At newly-married night, after guests leave, I mustered the courage to open one's mouth: " loose, I want to tell you something! " Have stopped up my mouth by the warm kiss loose. I improve the voice and repeat one: " I want to tell you something! " "If you need anything, it put it aside afterwards,tonight but a newly-married night such as ours. " Embrace me tighter loose. Under his gentle touch, I lost courage suddenly. The day after marriage passes silently, but I have not told him the courage of the truth again. Our marriage life is really perfect, I do not want to break this kind of happiness because of a bit of changes. But deep the intersection of regret and sense grow with each passing day, the intersection of I and psychological unblance often, hope husband make a noise, happen some scandal come on too, let me stop his love of the bath with one's heart at peace. But loose while shuttling between the career and family wholeheartedly, the loose life attitude is always rigorous, not looking sideways to other women, this makes me rest assured as well as distressed. One year later, promoted to a line manager loose, there is getting much communication. He can't help sloping to some extent on the balance of the career and family. As to this, I fully understand. I know what the undertaking means to man. I never bother about his work more, that go home to the less to him mind. I have never thought the husband will really betray me. So, when he begins to nit-pick to me unexpectedly, it is the past when has already known me that I associate it with him sensitively, a stream of slight chill in the air penetrate the back immediately. The ones that should come will come eventually, will know early that should tell him voluntarily originally so. I repent endlessly, at a loss as to what to do, have to expect quietly that an appropriate chance is repentant to thousand of his, strive for his understanding, while letting what we got back to in the past be warm and happy. However, the ones that made me quite unexpected are, husbands had a extramarital relation. , I was busy to go home ahead of time, saw that scene on our wedding bed extremely in surprise, I close eyes painfully. Kneel in front of me in fear and trepidation loose, he says he just gets confused temporarily, there is not the second time again in the future! It is repentant to look at thousand with pious loose whole face, I felt as if relieved of a heavy load suddenly. I want to tell him that secret of bringing the matter up, it is exactly the time now! I propped up and proffered a birch and asked for a flogging slowly loose, unbosome and torment the pain of injury not peaceful of my sleeping and eating to him all the time for many years. I confirmatively think he can gather around tightly I enter, cherish, erase the tear for me gently, say: " let us forget about going over, resume! " But pushed away me coldly loose, one connects one and smokes stoically. Severity of the problem that I feel immediately. After the general silence of death, opened at last loose: " let's divorce! " "Why? " "My wife once followed others, this fact let me unable to accept. " Have drooped the head loosely and painfully. "Too you "Do not wait for me to finish saying, loose and speak plausibly: "The man is different from woman " "Why is different? Why? " I steadfastlied stand one's ground rocking with strength loose, hope what he resumes in the past is generous, tell me this is not true. Answer I while being loose, but tone say his decision has unable to retrieve already firmly further, ask me to forgive his difficulties. I have nothing to say, only think it is loose that suddenly becomes unusually strange, and whole world is collapsing. Do not I understand, do man and woman have anything different?

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