The kinder to me the boyfriend is the more I want to betray his _'s love clinic

The kinder to me the boyfriend is, the more I want to betray his _'s love clinic

I often ask oneself, there is anything unsatisfied on earth? Doing in an expert way at work, leader, colleague are all very kind to me; Parents are in good health, anything does not let me worry about; The boyfriend looks after meticulously to me, docile; My looks beautiful too,
The stature is good, it is fashionable to dress up. But I think life instantly let me suppress, just like stranded in one dim light more and more, without the rooms of doors and windows, let me want to shout loudly.
If only use " Look after meticulously " , " docile" Come, it describes boyfriends to be good to come, I think still less than in place, you think about it, boyfriend that I pursue voluntarily originally, I love his maturity, calm and steady, handsome, love him for his abundant inner world and kindhearted heart. In fact, originally when I sent out and attacked the message to the boyfriend, the boyfriend has not been conquered by me quickly like what I imagined, because there are many girls who courted the boyfriend, I am not the very best among them.
However, after associating with the boyfriend for one year, I find and live that so passionate less than what has been imagined originally. Say, it only lasts 40 days to love deeply, more days are that the men and women can insist on passing by calm, dull day on the book. Well, but such a day is not what I hope, I cudgelled one's brain originally, is the result received like this?
I know my discontent to boyfriend has already been revealed to some extent. That day, I nestled in boyfriend's chest, my finger was slipped on boyfriend's chest, the brain is really in noisy disorder, do not know what are thinking. The man has looked like and asked one sentence of my something in a friendly way, I stall off, I am unhappy that the boyfriend thinks, must think I thought, stood up and pressed me under the body, began to be kissing me slowly. Gradually, the boyfriend's health has the response, but I conflict more and more, the mouth does not say, but is resisting in the health all corners, at last, I pushed the boyfriend down. The boyfriend is very ignorant, I feel too I am a bit rude, is probably for covering up, hold and gather up the boyfriend, there is something special to say I today.
What's the matter with me? What happened to on earth? Body and thought be deviated from, will certainly have two I, one I say such a day want of I, must talk overly to such a day; Another I am saying, you want something on earth, the boyfriend is so outstanding, there is not even reason to say good-bye at least, originally in order to get the boyfriend, so painstakingly
Should got married? I say to boyfriend we get married, who know I ask boyfriend drag urgent I quickly unexpectedly so at will, just as inlaying me into body. One pair of eyes of boyfriend flashes the moving tears say, thank me, he is sure to make me happy all one's life. I, for feeling rudely that regret of me, however, can't say anything. And the boyfriend really takes this sentence of mine seriously, ask urgently when I strike the wedding gauze kerchief, how many feasts are done, what guests,etc. are invited. And at this moment, my father fell ill suddenly.



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